Dinner with an Old Friend.

Beware-- I'm afraid this post may be a little sappy, honest, and maybe even a little emotional. I have not written in a while and my sudden inspiration is made obvious by my title. Tonight, I had dinner with an old friend.

I have been experiencing some deep-seeded emotions about friendships lately. I honestly do not know what brought this on, but nonetheless, I have been evaluating the strength and purpose of each of my friendships. Right or wrong, it is time that I make some changes. It is no secret that I have struggled with friendships in the past-- You can read about the realizations I made about my friendships during and after my wedding here. I have recently; however, starting making decisions about them. If I have a "friend" that makes me sad, that hurts my feelings, or that flat does not make me better, I am out. I am done. I am not burning bridges (as I have also written about before), I am just moving on. I have been spending a lot of time thinking about this, and I feel that if I want to grow and become the person I am to be, I have to let these people go. It is time.

On another side of this situation-- I have started looking at old friendships that have kind of just "fizzled" out. I have decided to spend some time rekindling (in a sense) these relationships. Don't get me wrong, I am not under the assumption that I will be the best of friends with every single person I have ever had a close relationship with... However, I would like to catch up with these people and at least start keeping touch with them again. I am working on it. I started tonight... And believe you me, it was a great feeling to spend time with someone I have known since I was probably 12 years old. I am happy.

I hope that I do not sound too harsh on either accounts, but the bottom line is this-- I will spend my time and energy on people that make me happy and I will pull myself away from those who don't.

End of story.