Do You Ever Just Have a Day...

Where all of the bad things you've done in your life sneak up on you and bash you over the head? Me neither. :) Seriously though... I like to think I'm a "good" person (I put good in quotation marks only because who's to say what good actually is?!), I really do. However, just like any other person on this entire planet, I have made some ugly, nasty mistakes. I have hurt, wronged, crushed, disappointed, lied to, and broken people I truly cared about. And sometimes, when I least expect them (even when life is nothing short of grand), these mistakes come crashing into my awareness... I wonder how on earth God is able to forgive me. I wonder WHY God is willing to forgive me. And I beat myself up because the truth is, I have been unable to forgive me. Then, I realize that I am human and this is part of who I am. I am this beautiful disaster who is still not exactly who she wants to be. Even more, I realize that God isn't human... He is this wonderfully infinite, all-knowing and all-loving being, and He has this unbelievable ability to wipe my slate clean each day. I thank Him for that. And my mistakes fall away again.