So True.

My mom has a job interview in Midland tomorrow. I am so excited for her and my dad both. We have all been praying that something would come her way.

I know that she is excited too; however, I also know she is very apprehensive. It's that bittersweet feeling once again. I think she wants to move to Odessa to be with my dad, but she really had herself convinced that she wouldn't get offered a job and would (get) to stay in Midlothian. While the idea of something new is fun and exciting, she would rather not experience the change. Understanding how she feels, one of her friends said "If you didn't want God's help, you shouldn't have asked." Genius statement if you ask me. My mom has been praying for something to happen, and when God worked it out, it wasn't exactly what she had planned.

This is so common for all of us, I think. My roommate and I were talking about it the other day and we agree that we beg God for solace and answers, but then are not always happy with the results. I remember being in the situation (more times than I would like to admit) where my heart was so broken that I was drowning in both pain and self-pity. I could not, nor did I want to, pull myself out of it. I would ask, plead, bargain and beg the Lord to "please just help me let him go" and then days later he (whoever "he" was at the time) would walk back into my life. I couldn't help but wonder 1. Is this a test? or 2. MAYBE God is telling me NOT to let go of him! Truth be told, I almost always leaned toward the latter only to be disappointed time and again.

When we pray, I believe we almost always have stipulations-- mostly unintentional. "Lord, please help me move on (BUT make it easy for me)." "God, please put a new job in my path (but make it one with high pay and little work)." We love to bargain!

God has a plan for us... And when we ask Him for help, He will always come through, giving us what we NEED. If we could just push our wants to the backburner, I think we would be able to approach God more humbly.